Ok so i haven’t updated in a while. I finally gotten a job, its at Zellers not the best job in the world and i constently come home saying i hate it but hey its a pay cheque and thats all that matters at this point. I droped my cell phone in the sink.. while it was full of water so i got a new phone yay new phone. I got my sisters baby shower this weekend and i went way overboard with the baby stuff so im now poor. i bought a dress for my Halloween coustume ima be hello kitty. And i’ve got 2 halloween parties to go to and possible work both days till 10.. i don’t mind i just wish i didn’t have to work till 10 so i could go to the parties at a normal time. Im gonna bake cookies Wednesday or Thursday cuz i like to bake and i told my friend i’d give him cookies cuz he likes cookies. Im going to New York with my friend in November to see Dir en grey thats gonna be awesome. I cant wait for it. I’ve also decided i need to start saving hard core if i wanna be able to go to japan once im done school with same friend im going to NYC with. And im also gonna try and save what every money i can thats left over from japan towards a down payment on a house. Mostly cuz i need out of my house but that i’ll be at lest a year after we go to japan because sam needs to finish school and get a job so she can help with paying bills and stuff XD. But yes thats whats been going on in my life so far nothing excited well other then NYC. But now im rambleing so bye

So its been a while since i updated. so there’s lots of new

1. I went to Scotland for a month.. while i was there went around a lot of different place with my parents and took lots of pictures. I love pictures. I hung out with my cousins , found out that one cousin is well... not that great a friend to me, yes he’s my cousin but i choose to be his friend cuz i don’t talk to many of my cousins. I also relaised i have more in common with my only female cousin then i did before i think its cuz she’s older there’s 4 years between us but with girls thats not that big of a difference once you’re 15 or so. I also broke up with my boyfriend i relaised some stuff while i was there and i had to make some changes. That was hard but... yeah.. other then that it was a really good vacation.

2. Im still looking for a job, i’ve applied a lot of places and i had an interview and im waiting to here back. Hopefully i’ll get it because i need the job. I cant stand relying on my parents for money plus they cant really afford to carry there stuff plus mine -.-

3. I’ve been sick for the past week -.- which means i couldn’t call the places i’ve applied to see if they had looked at my resume. But i also went to the After dark film festivle with sam and her boyfriend. We saw Vampire girl vs. Frankenstein girl that was awesome it was a romatic comedy and a vampire who liked a boy in her class so she turned into a vampire then another girl who likes him ends up being turned into a Frankensteinesk girl by her crazy father and them fighting over him, then Must love death that was hilarious which was about a guy who’s “girlfriend” neglected to mention she was dating someone so he decided to volunteer for a snuff film with hilarious outcomes some parts were O_O then others were hilarious. The last movie we went to see was Rough Cut a Korean movie about a gangster who wants to be an actor and an actor who wants to be a gangster doing a movie together it was amazing one of my favourite ones from the 3 we saw.

4. Yesterday i went to dinner and to karaoke for my friend Anthony’s going away party. That was so much fun made some new friends and hung out with some old ones. He’s going to school in japan for a year so we all went out for one last get together before he left. He’s not leaving till the 13th of September but he wanted to get together before everyone went back to school.

5. And i figured out what im going to be for my friend’s birthday/ Halloween party. I was gonna do ganguro girl or hello kitty but i didn’t know if my friends would get hello kitty or if some of my friends would be seen with me dressed like hello kitty but im gonna do it cuz sam suggested it so im not to worried now about people being seen with me dressed like a cat. I ordered the cat ears off ebay today they cost 10 bucks but im ok with it cuz i wouldn’t be able to get them in stores in Canada so im happy about that ^^

Anywho i’ve gone on long enough.

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1. I dont know how to do the link things where you can see other peoples avitars. i suck at this kinda stuff

2. I cry during kids movies, like lelo and stitch i cryed hardcore it was sad. but funny now when i think about it

3. I HATE the dark to the point where i cant walk in the dark. if i had to go into a dark room when i was working i couldnt it was really bad and even now if the light goes out outside my room i cant leave me room.

4. im going to be an aunty. my sister is pregnant and due at the end of december.

5. /b/tard. entirely.

6. My Punjabi is better then my French.

7. i like being out in the sun but i burn really bad on my back and shoulders becuase i got 2nd degree burns when i was younger and my skin there now is extra sensative

8. i hate confrontation and loudness, i tend to shut down and usually i start to cry. i dont even like loud movie sounds, or loud debates. this is why i hardly ever say what im really thinking to stupid people becuase i'd be the one who'd end up in tears if we started yelling.

okay, that was fun XD
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Ok so i was tired of having that last journal up. It was stupid and well yeah dumb. Soo i figured i’d do this one.

i went to the doctors last week and had a physical (yuk) and my doctor told me i had gained to much weight in to short a time so he’s asked me to keep track of my eating normal for the fist week (last week) and then cut back my carbs.. not cut them out cuz you need them... i cut it down to 4 max a day.. and exercises at lest 30 minutes a day and it couldn’t be just walking. So this is week one of the changes and its been going goo so far. I’ve worked out every day yesterday i did almost 3 hours and today 10 minutes so far but i did 10 minute trainer so im gonna wait till later to do hip hop abs. I’ve been eating good so far i’ve cut my carb intake to 3 a day rather than the 8 i was having a day. I have more energy. I went to bed earlier last night then normal but i also got up at 9am today. I have more energy which is good. Thursday im gonna treat as my relaxing day from working out because i have baseball thrusday nights and i have 1 or 2 games each week, So im still working out but im not doing any of the tapes.

i’ve set a goal weight for myself and a date that i should be reaching it by and its a reasonable goal of 115 by November, that’s a weight loss of about 2 pounds a week which is healthy and attainable when i go to Scotland im still gonna be working out and watching what i eat and i’ll still get exersise cuz i walk everywhere while im there. And once i get back i’ll be working again hopefully which will also be good cuz i wont be sitting at home all the time.

^_^ yay for getting things on track again!!!!

Frustrating some people can be frustrating. You explain things but they still don’t believe or they still get pissed at you for something you weren’t even mad about to begin with. Or you do stuff and it still isn’t good enough no matter what you do it’s not good enough. It’s frustrating, irritating and just makes you feel like giving up because no matter what you say or do your fucked. FUCK its so fucking frustrating. But whatever what’s the point in trying when its just gonna come back and bit you in the god damn ass. I guess im not even frustrated im more tired, tired of the B.S.. Yes i realise this isn’t like my normal posts.

On a happier note I’ve been working out more and eating better which is good. Sometimes its hard but its worth it. I’m leaving for Scotland in 20 days. I leave on the 28th!!! And i should be getting my Lolita dress on the 19th cuz it was shipped Friday or something like that and it takes about 2 weeks to arrive. I cant wait i hope it fits or im gonna cry. ^_^ i cant wait for Scotland. Its gonna be great i get to see my cousins and my boyfriend who i haven’t seen in person in a year in a half. My stomic hurts from my work out today and i forgot to eat lunch but i had breakfast for a change so im not really hungery yet. And even if i am we have lost of fruit and veggies i can eat cuz i have to cut back on the carbs. But im aloud to eat all the fruit and veggies i want. Thank god we have peanut butter and cheese wiz i can put that on celery to eat and give it some taste. ^_^ well i better go check and see if dinners ready